Here I am.. and so is He..

Here I am once again, standing *almost* on the edge of something that will change the direction of my life. However, it almost seems that it's not going to go off in a new direction but set me back onto the path in which I have chosen to walk with God. It seems I've had a mis-direction this year.. from what was going to happen.. a diversion, due to pain and disappointments. Due to bad descisons on my part and less control I gave to God.

And have I learnt my lesson?... Boy, have I!

So now here I stand.. I give my life to God and declare over and over that 'I trust you God'. This time, I mean it. This time actually understand it, and I truely know what it means.

Trust is such a little word. It sounds easy and do-able and growing up in a christian family it is something that should be childsplay.... but it's funny it's been the hardest thing to learn in my life so far.

After about 15 months of really working on it.. I am getting there and letting go.

Leaving God the things He's asked me to leave with him, un-clenching my fists and opening my heart to His future, His love .... His Life.

I know what he has for me is more than I could ever ask for myself.. What he has for 'us' is more than I could ever have hoped.

'He will give you the desires of your heart' (Psalm 37 3-5) Doesn't even cover it!

I will always praise you in the storm, for you are my Saviour, you have pulled me out of that deep dark pit and set my feet on solid ground. You are my rock, my anchor in the storm (and boy, do I know storms!) The little I can do back is trust you.

And I do.